You'll definitely get to know me better on here than anywhere else.
I could go see it, but I’m not sure.
In the past two days I have gotten hip dermals and my nipples pierced. I’m done for a while.. well, until June. :)
My heart is broken. The person I love doesn’t love me anymore and I really think it’s over now.. although we have broken up for the fifth time now, it’s so different than any other time. I did have faith it would be alright in a month or so, but I don’t feel that way anymore. He’s over me… and I have to accept it and move on. Instead of waiting, I just want time to skip a few months.. or at least this month. It’s really hard to let go of something like this, but I know I have to. This was my sign. I really need to move on from him, and I plan on it. I still want to see him, just not right now, I can’t do that to myself. I know what will happen. I just need to keep my mind occupied, but I can’t do that when my ‘friends’ are ditching me and blowing me off. I need someone that can ALWAYS be there for me, and I would do the same for them. I want a gentleman to just sweep me off my feet. To love me, as I would love him. I don’t want to get hurt again. I’m terrified of it. Why can’t I just have someone all to myself, be happy, and have a decent relationship? I want them to love ALL of me, and only me. It’s really not that hard.. I’m not that bad. I’m really trying to change my flaws though. Ughhghghghghg, I just want a honest and happy relationship, is that so hard to ask? Apparently. Fuck.
